my computer hates me.
i can't delete the last journal that i wrote in a hurry of tears and pissed-off-ed-ness.
which was unnecessary.


i've since had some time to breathe.

and hey i'm feeling a lot better (:


i haven't seen my friends in like three days and it feels like a long time.
but let's see i've had an all together really fine weekend.

changing my room alot (exciting!)
changing myself, well just a little.
but change is needed.

the only part that really gets me down right now are the dreams.
they're all about the wrong person but i wake up so happy...
in the dreams i'm always with the wrong one, and the other one... well they're there too, but i'm pushing them away and i know i'm hurting them.
and i hate it.
i feel so guilty...

torment, torment, torment.

but i'm pretty stable once again.
peace of mind - it has returned.